My Depression is Always Trying To Kill Me is the debut EP from Vince Grant, an LA-based singer songwriter. Released back in February, My Depression is Always Trying to Kill Me means to openly address and dive into Grant’s own struggles with mental illnesses and depression. And while this EP is obviously his first, the rhythmic guitars and wide-open, passionate lyrics on My Depression is Always Trying to Kill Me tell Grant’s story very well.
While Grant’s given label is alternative, it’s like a coffee house blend of alternative. There’s soft guitars, gentle percussions, soft vocals, which all blend together to create this really tender sound. While I wouldn’t go as far as to call it delicate, the listener does get a small sense that what they’re listening to is fragile and important in a way. It’s a refreshing change of pace from the clashing instruments and impassioned, screaming vocals that usually decide to tackle these sort of issues.
“I’ve suffered from depression my whole life. I really can’t recall a time when I haven’t been depressed, even as a kid. In more joyful moments, I was – and still am – aware of the specter of the disease lurking in the shadows, hovering over me and waiting to pounce at any moment.”
– Vince Grant on his Depression
Depression is a very horrible thing that affects way too many people. Describing it is almost like trying to describe snow to someone who’s never seen it before. You just barely scraped the surface of it. You can talk about the chemical imbalances in the brain and the textbook definitions until the cows come home, but the person won’t ever really know what depression really feels like. To fully describe depression, you have to make the person get a sense of what depression feels like. My Depression is Always Trying To Kill Me does almost exactly that. It doesn’t paint a clear picture, but between the soft instrumentals and the soft but passionate lyrics, you get a little bit of an inkling what Grant must be feeling with his own depression. That was the first thing that I noticed about this EP, and it was one of my favorite things about it.
A first EP isn’t meant to be perfect, and My Depression is Always Trying to Kill Me definitely isn’t perfect. But it is a passionate piece of art, and you can actually feel how important it is to the musician when you’re listening to it. And that is what makes it a great EP.